Tibetan prayer flags
flap in the wind
no one to talk to
Why Tower Air? I ask as my husband packs a suitcase to get ready to
attend his mother’s funeral.
Because it’s a bargain, he says.
Wouldn’t you rather fly a major carrier?
I pull a card from my Tarot deck. Out of the 78 possibilities, it’s the
Tower that shows up. Flames shoot from the top of a crumbling brick
tower while a couple with shock imprinted on their faces falls through
the air, crowns flying. There’s no soft landing in sight.
I plead with my husband to book with another airline, but he says he’ll
be fine. I shouldn’t put such faith in divination.
While I entertain a couple of acquaintances, the phone rings. My
husband’s voice sounds far away.
dusk signals the jasmine to release its scent
I’m at Kennedy. We had to make an emergency landing. While flames
shot out of the engine, the pilot told us to put our heads in our laps
and brace for impact. The silence was so thick, no one could make a
sound. I took my wallet from my pocket to place it in the seat pocket
facing me, just in case my body couldn’t be identified. And then I saw a
newspaper headline which seemed so vivid and real – son dies in plane
crash after attending mother’s funeral. It was the most bizarre
experience. I thought my life was over, that I’d never see you again.
When we got off the plane, some people actually kissed the ground.
Everyone is shaken including the pilot’s wife. It was her husband’s last
flight before retirement.
While my guests stuff themselves on tacos and guacamole, I try to regain
composure. Don’t sweat the small stuff, they tell me. Get over it. Move
on. Come eat.
I want to throw them both out but instead I bite my tongue until it
aches. I count the minutes until they’re out of my space.
the cat brings home a screech owl
I sense disappointment in my brother’s-in-law voice. Had there been a
fatal accident, he’d inherit all of the mother’s estate. I so need to
vent, but my next-door neighbor, who caught a blip about it on the news
During break in chi gong class, my husband tries to tell a classmate
about the incident, but the instructor, a Vietnamese guy who looks like
Fu Man Chu, glares at him as if to say, Keep your sad stories to yourself.