Pendulum, a Travel Journal
I open the pages of this journal. A record for the ages, so to speak.
Now I begin my journey. From now. For the ages.
I have said goodbye to my parents. Many years ago, at their gravesides. I have chosen to make no other attachments in life, knowing that pursuit of this sojourn would be my life's work, and knowing what it would cost. Especially what it would cost a wife, were I to take one.
brume covered fields
– reflected headlights
in predawn chill
One Year from Now
Little has changed in any significant way. The investigation into my disappearance closed months ago – remarkably fast! – when the police verified that the signature on the release form I'd left with my company was indeed mine.
My friends' social media pages were enlightening. There were unexpected faces in the photos of the memorial held in my honor – and a few unexpected absences too. Perhaps it would have been better not to look.
in time with the busker's beat
coins in a mendicant's cup
One Year Ago
A carefully chosen date. My boss sits in the armchair in my study at home, smoking a cigar. In my favorite chair, and I am allergic to smoke. But, he's the boss.
On the coffee table, technical drawings lie pinned beneath a history tome. The book's pages are marked with tags of different colors. Pinks for the must-see events. Yellow for dates with local significance. Blue for those he knew would hold personal appeal for me.
"But, Michael, surely we shouldn't start with these dates. You just never know," I listen to myself saying.
"I don't know. Let me think about it. I'll get back to you by the end of next week with a plan. Perhaps something for which I am better equipped to confirm the validity – things I've already seen before. At least to start."
"That makes sense. But look at the plans for the device there. You can't start with something you've already seen. It has to go forward for the first swing. It's the way it works."
fingers on keys
the metronome's shadow swings
across his cheek
Ten Years from Now
A new shopping centre sits prominently at the end of my street. The view from my bedroom window is hopelessly obscured by its back wall.
It doesn't matter. I cannot get into my apartment any longer. It's not really mine. Three families have moved in and out since it was last mine. The one that lives there now has been there less than a year.
It is a muggy summer afternoon. I should have timed this visit for a milder season.
drenched in hydrant's spray
Ten Years Ago
From a cafe on the opposite side of the road, I watch myself enter my office building. I scratch my unshaven cheek, but stop short of touching the grey around my ears.
My younger self carries a black leather briefcase, still looking new. A gift from my grandfather when I finished my oral defense of my PhD. On the day I left my own time, I placed the briefcase in a safety deposit box, holding all the possessions I had that were worth recovering when I returned. If I returned.
unbroken amber strobes
lightning and thunder crash
A Quarter Century from Now
I dare not search. I don't want to know if I still live, nor where I am if I do.
No more cell phones or computer terminals that I can see, not anywhere. All the better. Here (now), I don't know how to look myself up anyway.
Even without recognizable consoles, every pedestrian speaks as s/he walks along, as if to her or himself. I don't know how they communicate remotely, but their manner is that of a plugged-in people.
Today, I know how far I have traveled.
composed after my death
I sway in time
A Quarter Century Ago
I sit outside my professor's door. My younger self, at the end of my freshman year, walks past me, without the slightest glance. Seeing his slim waist, slight slouch, and shoulder-length hair, I am not surprised. I am completely unrecognizable to the future self he dreams of.
I can't hear the conversation inside the office, but I don't need to. I know what the boy is hearing. An offer of an internship at Horolotech. A privacy agreement. Promises of opportunities. An imagined future, its brilliant appeal.
And a question. "I know you're not a fool – far from it. So, tell me," the old professor says, "why would you commit to something like this?"
A boyish shrug. "Because you think I can't."
dandelions in the breeze
his pursed lips
A Century from Now
The language has morphed. I can order a cup of coffee and ask for baseball scores, then understand so little of the replies I receive. Even my money is looked at askance.
I am a man without currency.
The temptation to learn news of my future self has completely dissipated. I am too far beyond my own time. Navigating a path for my present self in this future world is difficult enough. I don't even care anymore what this future holds for me and my loved ones. This is not our world.
a multi-volume work
on fallen habitats writ
A Century Ago
My apartment building is no longer here, nor my street. At least, not as I knew them. There is a dirt road, lined with low wooden buildings. Ed's Pharmacy stands at the same spot on the corner it occupies in my time. Only its name is recognizable.
Here (now), I understand all that is said to me, but must concentrate to avoid using words that will not appear in the language until several decades from now. Easier than it sounds.
the improvised descant
of a cop's whistle
Seven Centuries from Now
The people (?) I meet are not what I know. Everyone, even the smallest child, is at least half machine. I have spent all my time in this future acquiring a new language. It took several days, but additions have been made, the program loaded.
Seven Centuries Ago
A wooded space. Wild, but not quite untouched. A narrow path along the stream suggests human traffic. An ideal watering hole.
For the first time in my travels, I fear my presence will upset some balance. Or that hostile eyes are watching, ready to defend their own hunting grounds.
I shake off my misgivings. My people have not yet arrived. My scalp does not yet come with a high price tag. If any eyes are watching here (now), they have no reason yet to hate or fear me.
The sun's light reflects off the surface of the stream, creating a dance on the underside of the foliage overhead. I stretch out on the bank and watch its rhythm. Around me are only the sights and sounds over which my neighborhood was built, but which I have never known.
leafy green blends
with silver threads –
water moccasin's drift
Two Millennia From Now
Two Millennia Ago
No dazzling cities to be later lost, covered in jungle undergrowth. Really, was this what I expected? Hoped for?
If such myths ever did live, they did not live here.
The forest here (now) is not very different from my last visit. Minus only the subtle footpath.
How long has it just gone on like this? How many millennia of this thriving silence?
cicada ballad –
ticking in unison
a windup army
In the End
dimmed the lights
In the Beginning
Darkness. Silence. Explosions of light. Debris flung outward. Outward. Outward.
the only constant
swarm in flight